Acceptance

I told you how I longed for Fall
and how rain made me feel better
walking on falling leaves
and the way the air smells on a cool day
like a clean life.

It's hard to get close to a clean life
if you are me anyway.
Everything is so full of drama and pain
and sometimes I just want to run away.

But where would I go?
On foot. In the rain.

So I stay here quietly breathing in the new season
knowing it is the best I can hope for.